kids and growing up wow...

so this year two big things will happen. My neice with graduate from high school and my son will graduate from middle school.  these big big changes and something ive been fighting to not have a part of. lmao growing up and letting your kids grow up is soo tough. I dont dig this at all. I dont want them to be independent and to leave me. i know that this is what most parents shoot for but for me its like an ending to a part of my life iam not ready to end. I know they soo want away from me. lol they need there privacy  and i get it. but id rather not do it. How do you just let go of your kids?? If somebody knows the answer to this cause iam finding this incredibly hard. my neice graduating means my sister and my neice will be moving farther and farther away. it sucks. This year is  a year of serious changes and it sucks. haha i barely see my sister as it is and now shes gonna be further away and i enjoy time with my neice and shes gonna be gone as well. change is good moving on is good. but how do you get your brain to not beleive your losing something? 

Dance Moms...

Ok so i watch this show. I love this show. This show is about little girls in a competition dance group. How the mothers react to their kids being involved with this group. Now the teacher abby lee miller has been a dance coach for years and have had tons of dancers that go on to carrers in dance. she has a tremendous success rate and is very very talented. She is very very tough on these little girls and the mothers have a shit fit and yell and talk shit about the teacher all the time. There jealous of one of the little girls cause shes the best.  The mothers are not the girls. the girls are happy to be doing what they are doing. and love there friends in the group. And when one wins there so happy for each other. NOw my question is Is it right for these women to treat the teacher like shit cause they beleive there kid should be the best but isnt. they dont like it when the kid gets told there doing things wrong or what not. For me being a dancer is hard hard work and to be really really good at it. you have to start young and have those teachers who will not just tell these kids there good. I disagree with the way they treat this lady. she is in the right completly. They are getting what they are paying for shes the best and all you have to do is check her track record to see that. I think its ridiculous that they get mad when the one girl is getting the wins and the admiration. shes the best they need to get over it. abby tells them if they do right and tells them if they do wrong. even the best girls gets it. I dont know watch the show its on lifetime on tuesdays. you tell me what you think!                                                                                                                                                  
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Dance and me....

well when i was way younger i used to love dance so much basically it was my life. I would go out to the teen clubs and dance and dance. they had crews back then and i could keep up with them. coming home with such an ammount of sweat it was gross but i had so much fun. i used to make my cousins and sister do dances i made it. I made up a dance to come go with me by expose and my sister trying to do the dance feel down the vent. i also made up dances with my boy cousins to the wwf soundtrack. lol it was ridiculous but i loved every damn minute of it. I thought i was sooo damn good i had a class at hill for dental assistant and i maede them watch me dance too. People probly thought i was retarded. I think the arts got a hold of me when i was very very young. dance, art, music, writing  i mean i loved it all. I still do. i mean its changed so much. iam not who i was then i wouldnt ask to perform in front of my class like i did or make people do my made up dances. lol but i still watch alot of dance clothes and watch their form when you would be watching there performance. I just love dance and i want to learn to ballroom dance. have a man partner who can run me around the dance floor. Not my husband ooo no hes just not into that. i just want to dance to feel like i did before about it. Not the attention just the dance the feeling of learning something new. I would love that. maybe someday! another day another blog. thanks for the idea lindy. doing a blog everyday isnt as easy as some might think. :)                                                           Hugs and Love,                                                                          
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Hmm am i a joke...

Am i a joke? Am i replacable to you? I think some of the people iam closest with feels that iam. That kinda hurts my feelings but should it? Should i really care i mean i think iam pretty decent. Iam not perfect but i know that. and i think that is important. I just dont know Am i just a joke?

A poem for my kids

Like no other
By Just Some CHick

The way you look...
its plain to see...
theres no other like you to me...

The way you laugh and that funny grin...
Makes me smile And see..
theres no other like you too me..

The way you sing when nobody is watching...
and how i just try to watch without you stoping....
It makes me laugh and its plain to see...
theres no other like you too me...

the way you dance like your a pro..
the smile you get when you have done it right..
I wanna laugh but i dont you see...
cause theres no other like you too me...

You have it all in the palm of your hands...
Your the best and can do whatever you want...
dream big and when those others say Your no good...
Know thats your special and beleive and see...
Cause Mom says there is no other in the world like you too me....

What to talk about eh...

Sooo lets see, I have done nothing again. boring day again. I mean yay i really do get that days are like this but eh writing about it sucks. Well how bout this, My kid is getting a vocal coach. She is gonna do it for free which is completly amazing and my kid is so happy. he reminds me so much of me as a kid. He wants to write songs but hes not good at spelling hes in special ed still for that. Wanna make fun of him? Go ahead i will fricken hunt you down and shoot your ass. My kid has been in special ed for a number of years hes in eigth now. he has learning issues but he has gone from allmost full day Resource room to only an hour a day! Hes doing amazing. So no making fun of my kid! but anyways he wants to write songs he wants to do guitar he wants to sing. We will see what she can do with him! Iam excited for it.  Thats one thing... What else avon doing pretty good i need more orders and need to get people to pay but that shouldnt be too hard just gotta get up and do it. Trying to not let people get to me things piss me off and i just eh it off been working ok for right now. thank goodness. i hate when i lose control of my emotion. I know call me cold if you want i just dont like being ugly. I try really hard not to let anybody in my family be ugly. but kids will be kids and hubby will do what he wants even though i bitch about it he will still do it. But thats life and marriage. yay might be too many years now. haha anyways running out of things to say So ill say good night. :)                                   

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Kay Starr... ever wonder where the name came from?

So when i was younger, I was into just about every type a music there was. Until i turned 16 and seen a man on the tv by the name of Mike Tramp. Instantly i was in love and completly got into the metal scene. I named myself Kay Starr because i started trying to promote all these bands, first one.... Slaughter. I was so in love with Slaughter. Mark Slaughter in particular. I got flyers buttons just a ton of stuff. I wore the button around town everybody looked at me like a crazy person because the button said The Slaughter is coming. haha it was fun people asking me wtf that meant. it made me laugh. I was such a huge help and fan they called me and when they did i was not home. So my mother made them spell out there names. I was morified. haha embarassing old lady. I went from that to meeting a lady who was also a fan of live music that but liked to write about it. I began writing for a newsletter callled D.A.M (Drummers Are Musicians) She inspired me so much. I loved rock , metal and i loved it live. so i got to go and interview and meet alot of people. It was a dream come true for me. Ive never quite learned another feeling thats better then being so excited about listening to a live band that you love. to this day i still get giddy about it. ask anybody whos seen me at a show. So basically these a just a few things i did when i was younger and where the name comes from. I had so much fun. I really miss that kay some days!                                                            
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