Dance and me....

well when i was way younger i used to love dance so much basically it was my life. I would go out to the teen clubs and dance and dance. they had crews back then and i could keep up with them. coming home with such an ammount of sweat it was gross but i had so much fun. i used to make my cousins and sister do dances i made it. I made up a dance to come go with me by expose and my sister trying to do the dance feel down the vent. i also made up dances with my boy cousins to the wwf soundtrack. lol it was ridiculous but i loved every damn minute of it. I thought i was sooo damn good i had a class at hill for dental assistant and i maede them watch me dance too. People probly thought i was retarded. I think the arts got a hold of me when i was very very young. dance, art, music, writing  i mean i loved it all. I still do. i mean its changed so much. iam not who i was then i wouldnt ask to perform in front of my class like i did or make people do my made up dances. lol but i still watch alot of dance clothes and watch their form when you would be watching there performance. I just love dance and i want to learn to ballroom dance. have a man partner who can run me around the dance floor. Not my husband ooo no hes just not into that. i just want to dance to feel like i did before about it. Not the attention just the dance the feeling of learning something new. I would love that. maybe someday! another day another blog. thanks for the idea lindy. doing a blog everyday isnt as easy as some might think. :)                                                           Hugs and Love,                                                                          
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Hmm am i a joke...

Am i a joke? Am i replacable to you? I think some of the people iam closest with feels that iam. That kinda hurts my feelings but should it? Should i really care i mean i think iam pretty decent. Iam not perfect but i know that. and i think that is important. I just dont know Am i just a joke?

A poem for my kids

Like no other
By Just Some CHick

The way you look...
its plain to see...
theres no other like you to me...

The way you laugh and that funny grin...
Makes me smile And see..
theres no other like you too me..

The way you sing when nobody is watching...
and how i just try to watch without you stoping....
It makes me laugh and its plain to see...
theres no other like you too me...

the way you dance like your a pro..
the smile you get when you have done it right..
I wanna laugh but i dont you see...
cause theres no other like you too me...

You have it all in the palm of your hands...
Your the best and can do whatever you want...
dream big and when those others say Your no good...
Know thats your special and beleive and see...
Cause Mom says there is no other in the world like you too me....

What to talk about eh...

Sooo lets see, I have done nothing again. boring day again. I mean yay i really do get that days are like this but eh writing about it sucks. Well how bout this, My kid is getting a vocal coach. She is gonna do it for free which is completly amazing and my kid is so happy. he reminds me so much of me as a kid. He wants to write songs but hes not good at spelling hes in special ed still for that. Wanna make fun of him? Go ahead i will fricken hunt you down and shoot your ass. My kid has been in special ed for a number of years hes in eigth now. he has learning issues but he has gone from allmost full day Resource room to only an hour a day! Hes doing amazing. So no making fun of my kid! but anyways he wants to write songs he wants to do guitar he wants to sing. We will see what she can do with him! Iam excited for it.  Thats one thing... What else avon doing pretty good i need more orders and need to get people to pay but that shouldnt be too hard just gotta get up and do it. Trying to not let people get to me things piss me off and i just eh it off been working ok for right now. thank goodness. i hate when i lose control of my emotion. I know call me cold if you want i just dont like being ugly. I try really hard not to let anybody in my family be ugly. but kids will be kids and hubby will do what he wants even though i bitch about it he will still do it. But thats life and marriage. yay might be too many years now. haha anyways running out of things to say So ill say good night. :)                                   

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Kay Starr... ever wonder where the name came from?

So when i was younger, I was into just about every type a music there was. Until i turned 16 and seen a man on the tv by the name of Mike Tramp. Instantly i was in love and completly got into the metal scene. I named myself Kay Starr because i started trying to promote all these bands, first one.... Slaughter. I was so in love with Slaughter. Mark Slaughter in particular. I got flyers buttons just a ton of stuff. I wore the button around town everybody looked at me like a crazy person because the button said The Slaughter is coming. haha it was fun people asking me wtf that meant. it made me laugh. I was such a huge help and fan they called me and when they did i was not home. So my mother made them spell out there names. I was morified. haha embarassing old lady. I went from that to meeting a lady who was also a fan of live music that but liked to write about it. I began writing for a newsletter callled D.A.M (Drummers Are Musicians) She inspired me so much. I loved rock , metal and i loved it live. so i got to go and interview and meet alot of people. It was a dream come true for me. Ive never quite learned another feeling thats better then being so excited about listening to a live band that you love. to this day i still get giddy about it. ask anybody whos seen me at a show. So basically these a just a few things i did when i was younger and where the name comes from. I had so much fun. I really miss that kay some days!                                                            
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just another day...

this is gonna be one of those posts where i just have nothing to say again. nothing happened to inspire me nothing happened that was icky just a boring old nothing day. Cant say that it bugs me to have nothing happened but when your trying to do a post a day and have absolutly nothing to say its annoying. lol  i mean realy just give me one thing., but ya no i have nothing. haha anyways maybe tomarrow something will inspire me even if its something to bitch about. lol                                                                                                              
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UHHHH feeling so much better now....

So yes been feeling better. I have been completly stressed and i know that ive been pretty  ugly latly. As Nobody really does it to me i have done it too myself. I wish to appoligise for my flippin negativity. We all have so many doubts and things that make us negative but i find when others are negative its rather easy to go that way yourself. So i do appoligise if ive brung anybody down. I realise all i can do is be the best me i can be. I will not be telling people what i think of them being raw like that only hurts people. I wont be doing that. Most of the time when iam pissed i get over it pretty quick so why bring up something that hapened in the past and hurt others. I do beleive in honesty. but honesty comes at a price at times and sometimes its just not worth it.  I love so much i realy do. I know people have issue think iam fake at times and a goodie too shoes. but thats how i feel. I love everybody and i try to make everybody happy. i offer shit even when i know i cant afford it or i know i dont have the time to do it. I piss off some people when i offer to other people. i hate that i do this. but i just cant say no. especially to certain people. I get angry about people being fake and talking shit but i cant cut them out. I should be stronger but its just not me. When i love you i love you. I cannot just cut you out.I do beleive myself to be a good person but if somebody attacks my core , who iam, I do tend to wonder if iam that person. why would they say that if they didnt have a reason too. You know what i mean. So i do beleive in myself but i do have insecuritys as well. This is the core of who iam. If any of you didnt know who iam. Most of you do and most of you have personal experiences with me even to know the core of who iam. I have big dreams and wish so much that i could make them come true. as i get older iam feeling that it is hopeless and wondering if i should try. That sucks. Oddly iam allmost 42 but in my mind iam still 23. that could be good but it could be bad as well. Eh i dont know just sharing what is in my mind at this point. Like it lump it. It is me.              
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Random....

Random random Random... Really have nothing today. Life is uneventful today. I feel a lil icky probly all the stress so i sleept half the day, cooked dinner and now iam sitting on the puter whoopy doo. So i realy have absolutly nothing to say. but iam doing the blog a day thing soo had to put something up here. Hope everybody had a great day.                                                                                                                               
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De stressed a bit... thank goodness!

I love it today my biggest worry of this stress filled week is now over. It went extremly well! yahooo! just goes to show what exactly i was worrying about i shouldve just had a lil faith in human beings and i wouldnt have been so damn worried. thats what i need is a lil faith. This is absolutly the most stressed ive been in such a long time. I dont usually let things get to me this much. not last week but the week before last i barely slept. So you know thats bad. I usually have no issues with sleep. but latly with life its been hard to sleep. money issues have been hell and i realise that it happens but its never been this scary. it sucks that all my taxes had to go for bills and i had no fun with them at all. Sucks but at least now we are secure and can get back to normal. iam used to strugling so as long as i can keep it from getting to far behind iam sure ill be fine. Well iam gonna go to sleep now... Maybe?                                                                                                      
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Stressed

SOOOO effin stressed out right now. ugh! The last two weeks straight nothing but stress. iam so sick of my life right now. I dont really see the effin point of going on if this is what i have to deal with from week to week. Last week was hell shouldve been good cause we got some money but all of it had to go to rent and effin bills or we would not have a place to live right now. now this week all of my money has to go in a different place. Sucks complete ass if you assk me. Iam so sick of it all. I not saying iam gonna hurt myself cause beleive me ive never had a thought like that. Iam not that effin weak and nothing could make me hurt myself in anyway. Iam just so tired. People think that my husband makes a shit ton of money and i should just have it to give them all. or i should be able to live high on the hog but iam here to tell you thats just not the effin case. I have barely nothing and most of the time thats ok by me but latly its really biting. i hate all the effin stresss. people say there gonna pay me for shit and never show and that effin pisses me off too. money is just so stressful and i dont want to deal with it anymore. I know thats what you have to do to be an adult i get it but so tired of it all. all i really want is a lil relief. thats it no more no less. supposed to go do something with people this weekend guess what i fricken cant. Ugh somedays i just want to run the fuck away!

Kids I tell ya....

SItting here watching american idol with my kids. My kid loves these shows thinks that someday he will be one of those kids trying to  audition for american idol. I think its wonderful and i see myself in him. when i was a kid i wanted to be a dancer then a singer then it all changed and i wanted to be a rockstars wife. Then i decided i wanted to write about all the rockstars in the world. I would still like to do all of that. So maybe if i get my kid singing lessons and invest in him maybe i can live through him. It makes me happy that he is a little like me. I find it amusing as well. He may look like his father but he acts just like me. haha I love to listen to their dreams cause they could still realise all of them. It may be a lil late for me but i hope not. But wouldnt it be amazing if he made all his dreams come true. Have hope in life still even in this crappy festival we call earth today. Hope is seriously laking. I dont want to feel like that but it soo is. So kids changing the world is all we can hope for. I know a few kids that have allready made a huge difference. We all need to beleive in something and why not beleive in your kiddos. Ahhh anyways food for thought, Hope you are all enjoying your day immensly!                                                                                                            
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Another day another headache...

So just here today. nothing really happened to me today. Nothing pissed me off, nothing made me happy. just a day blah blah blah... So we will talk about nothing today. So a friend was talking about how she has gotten lost. What she was before childern and a man in her life how it changed her into being somebody different. I feel this everyday, everything i wanted to be before my kids and husband is not who iam today. Brings the question are we who we should be, or did we totaly miss the bus. Should everybody be able to have it all? Or should we sacrifce who we want to be to have something else. Not saying that being a mom and a wife is a bad thing. Just trying to figure out whether wanting more is just being selfish! Food for thought,                                                                                              
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Valentines Day HMMMM...

So here we are its valentines day! For the most part it is a nice day! I dont really allways celebrate it and and for me thats ok. I have no issues if i get nothing. Its not like its my birthday or anything. But oddly its like everybody has somebody this year and everybody is talking about how great there days were and what not. Its like the year we dont do shit everybody is doing that. So i kinda feel left out. Thats ok though. It doesnt really bother me that much. I have bigger fish to fry. Iam pissed off today because certain people in my life just have no common sence to give what you get. there is very few people that i would give money too or give myself too. It makes me sick when i do this for certain people and they dont give it back. Considering for this person all i do is give give give. Makes me agravated as hell. I have issues with trust, I have people in my life i know i should trust no matter what but do i trust them completly. No i dont. This is stupid. Its probly cause i forgive and forgive and forgive but still find out oh this person said this behind your back or did this behind your back. It totaly sucks that every person in my life has to pay for just some peoples bullshit. I realise iam not beyond this i may have screwed over some people in my life as well. So ya iam not perfect but i try to give what i want returned. So when it all happens this way it not only infuriates me but makes me so sad. Anyways enough bitcching.
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