Stressed

SOOOO effin stressed out right now. ugh! The last two weeks straight nothing but stress. iam so sick of my life right now. I dont really see the effin point of going on if this is what i have to deal with from week to week. Last week was hell shouldve been good cause we got some money but all of it had to go to rent and effin bills or we would not have a place to live right now. now this week all of my money has to go in a different place. Sucks complete ass if you assk me. Iam so sick of it all. I not saying iam gonna hurt myself cause beleive me ive never had a thought like that. Iam not that effin weak and nothing could make me hurt myself in anyway. Iam just so tired. People think that my husband makes a shit ton of money and i should just have it to give them all. or i should be able to live high on the hog but iam here to tell you thats just not the effin case. I have barely nothing and most of the time thats ok by me but latly its really biting. i hate all the effin stresss. people say there gonna pay me for shit and never show and that effin pisses me off too. money is just so stressful and i dont want to deal with it anymore. I know thats what you have to do to be an adult i get it but so tired of it all. all i really want is a lil relief. thats it no more no less. supposed to go do something with people this weekend guess what i fricken cant. Ugh somedays i just want to run the fuck away!